Another scan, another lesson

Sunset over Rice Lake in Canada, another example of God in action

I’m posting this early in the morning before my busy day. I get my PET scan today, then I’m off to my Healthy Steps class and a quick bite to eat with my friend Nevine, who I’ve mentioned in previous posts.

I want to thank everyone who has supported me as I deal with anxiety about the results of this scan. I’ve questioned whether the chemo is working after seeking the second opinion in Indy (he disagreed with the treatment) and some swelling in my armpit (the site of my recurrence).

Yet this morning I feel peaceful. I decided to let go and let God. I’ve done my part, I can now leave the outcome to my higher power. An exercise I found helpful was to list all the times God helped me when things looked hopeless.  I had a long list. Here are just a few:

• Healing me from an abusive childhood,
• Meeting my husband when I almost gave up hope of finding a soulmate,
• Inspiring me to write my book and do the blog,
• And as a result, bringing so many wonderful people into my life when I needed them most.

God had my back then, and God has it now. I need to look no farther than the stories in my book to know that miracles happen more often than we think.

So no matter what the scans say, I know that this too shall pass. It is only a temporary condition, and God will find a way to bring me out of it. It may mean changing my course of treatment – I’ve been told I have many options. Or it may mean I’m on the right course. I’ll find out soon, and I’ll let you all know.

In the meantime, I’m going to try not to think about it. After all, it’s in God’s hands now.