I haven’t posted a while because, frankly, I’ve been having too much fun! We just returned from a wonderful long weekend in Asheville, NC where we soaked in mineral springs, toured Biltmore Estate, went horseback riding, and experienced the eclectic downtown with a friend who recently moved there. It was quite exhausting and I almost collapsed after the second day, but it was all worth it.
Last night I went to see David Byrne in concert with my friend Susan, who I’ve known since our college days when we were roommates. We had a fabulous time catching up and reminiscing. I felt like I was in my 20′s again.
I’ve been staying off cancer forums and spending more time with my daughter Chrissy. Some days I totally forget I have cancer; I even had a dream that it was gone and it was never coming back. Chrissy’s on summer break, so I decided I am, too. I’m taking a vacation from cancer. I am much more than that c-word.
I love music – especially from the 80s, the outdoors and my family. Being around good friends – without talking about the c-word – brings me joy. I have an unusual talent of being able to play tunes on my cheeks (on my face, of course!) I have a sense of humor and cherish a good laugh. I used to be shy, but now feel like I can go up and talk to just about anyone – much to the embarrassment of my 14-year-old daughter. Oh, and did I mention I really like embarrassing her?
This is who I am. The c-word does not define me. I want to get back to who I was before that disease changed things forever.
Sure, I was faced with reality when I had my oncologist appointment the day we returned from Asheville. I started to feel sorry for myself when I saw that I was the only person under 70 in the room. And it kind of sucked when they couldn’t draw blood from my port and the expected one-hour appointment turned into three. But I decided to grin and bear it and actually had a great conversation about parenting with my nurse.
Fittingly enough, my next scan is scheduled right before my daughter goes back to the school. The official end of our summer break. Perhaps I’ll be ready then to dive into writing version 2 of From Incurable to Incredible and scheduling speaking engagements. Until then, I’m going to savor my summer vacation … away from cancer.