I haven’t written much about my spiritual journey and cancer … mostly because I don’t want to turn off readers who may not believe in God or a higher power. But tonight I am giving a talk at New Thought Unity Spiritual Center (where I go), and it has inspired me to look back on how much God has carried me through the crazy roller coaster ride of having stage IV cancer.
Actually, I’m pretty nervous about my talk. I’m certainly no expert on spiritual matters; I can only share my experience. Two things I want people to take away from it are: 1. No matter what our circumstances, we can transform our lives, and 2. With God all things are possible.
Before I was diagnosed with metastatic disease, I remember telling someone going through it, “I don’t know how you do it; I could never handle it.” Now I know I can do more than handle it; my life can be enriched and glorious despite … or maybe even because of the experience. My relationship with God became very up close and personal when I heard I had a life-threatening disease. I know one thing: I can’t imagine rising above my circumstances without God in my life.
As Eleanor Roosevelt said, “A woman is like a tea bag; you never know how strong you are until you’re in hot water.” I believe my strength comes from knowing there is a Higher Power that loves me unconditionally and is guiding me to my highest good. And as the title of my blog indicates, I do believe and have witnessed miracles.
My faith has been tested for sure. I’ve questioned God when scan results turned bad and when dear friends of mine have died. I don’t believe God makes these things happen, but God certainly has helped me come out on the other side of these traumas. I believe my friends’ spirits are immortal and that they have transcended to an amazing plane with blessings beyond our imagination. That comforts me, and helps me make some sense of the tragedy.
God is present when I make treatment decisions, leading me with that “gut feeling” and still, small voice that sometimes comes from other people. God is present in all the wonderful people who have come into my life since being diagnosed with cancer. I believe God is leading me to my higher calling with this blog, book and mentoring I do with other survivors. And I know that everything I give, comes back ten-fold.
It’s been my experience that gratitude makes all the difference. The more I thank God for my blessings; the more come my way. Never in my wildest dreams would I anticipate having a book published by a well-respected New York City publisher. Nor would I ever believe I’d find so many incredible people who have beat the odds of terminal cancer. Each story I hear brings me so much hope, and I’m excited and blessed to be able to share that hope with others. I never take my health and blessings for granted, so I’ve made a commitment to appreciate each day.
When I was re-doing my office, I put up a wall decal, which summarizes my experience: “Faith makes all things possible, love makes all things easy, hope makes all things work.”