Update on me: physical, mental and spiritual

Update on me: physical, mental and spiritual

“Hope expects an answer sometime in the future; faith takes it as having already been given.” -H. Emile Cady I have been stalling writing a blog post, mostly because I strive to be totally honest here, and I don’t want to worry you all. Another reason is I wanted to have a game plan to share with you rather than leave you up in the air. I am facing a scary time right now. The cancer has grown to the point that it is affecting my bodily functions. Last week, I was in two emergency rooms for almost a day and hospital for two days due to a partial bowel obstruction. (For my husband Mike’s update of events leading up to this, click HERE.) They took me off the clinical trial that I’ve been on as it obviously is not working at all. It is...

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Listening to hope: Miracle Survivors audiobook

Listening to hope: Miracle Survivors audiobook

It’s kind of weird thing writing a book. It’s like birthing a baby; you put a lot of work into it and give it a name, then release it to the world. You don’t want your child to be rejected, and it’s easy to take people’s acceptance or rejection of it personally. So it has been with me. Miracle Survivors is my second book and I absolutely believe in it. Yet I’ve been a little wary of promoting it as much as I did with my first book, From Incurable to Incredible. True, this one was published traditionally rather than self-published as my first one was. I didn’t have as much control over the process and not everything about the final outcome is perfect. But I’ve been realizing the book isn’t about me (although I...

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Lessons learned – living with that unwanted guest

Lessons learned – living with that unwanted guest

One of the features of my book, Miracle Survivors, is a list of “Lessons Learned” from each survivor who shares his/her story. Some examples: “Be in charge of your own health. It’s not about the patients vs. the health system; it’s about saving your own life.” – Mark Roby “We can accept ourselves and the fact that we’re not perfect and can’t always act perfectly. Just try to be healthier in mind and body and make life in general better for yourself and others.” – Dikla Benzeevi “You have to keep moving forward. If you hit a roadblock during one treatment, try a second. Don’t give up the first sign something’s not working.” – Mark Williams I was thinking today of...

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The Anatomy of Hope

The Anatomy of Hope

If you know me, you know I’m no fan of statistics. It’s the whole reason I wrote two books about people who beat the odds and why I continue to do this blog. It doesn’t take much digging to see their unreliability. As the American Cancer Society states on its site, the statistics they have for breast cancer survivorship are based on “people who were treated at least 5 years ago. Improvements in treatment since then may result in a more favorable outlook for people now being diagnosed with breast cancer.” I look at my survival. According to these outdated statistics, I only had a 22 percent of being around five years. It’s been seven years since I was diagnosed, and I’m still here. And the past two drugs I’ve been on...

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Life, death and love: seeking light in the darkness

Life, death and love: seeking light in the darkness

Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I fear no evil; for you are with me; your rod and staff- they comfort me.  – Psalm 23:4 I read this today in my Daily Word. The affirmation was “The peace of God comforts me.” I was crying out for comfort on Facebook the other day, saying I wish I had a Jewish mother to feed me matzoh ball soup. Seems like God is speaking out to me, letting me know She’s my Jewish mother. I’ve talked before about the deaths of friends to cancer. The past few weeks have been especially brutal. I learned that Peter Devereaux, a shining example of courage, kindness and love passed away. His story is one that I share in my upcoming book, Miracle Survivors. Sadly he will not get to see it published or his...

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“That’s the thing about pain …”

“That’s the thing about pain …”

I sped through the book, The Fault in the Stars. and so did my daughter. Then we went to see the movie. I didn’t cry during the book; I just felt sad.  Add in some great acting, sentimental music and all the other trappings of a great movie, and I was a sobbing mess. I told myself they were cleansing tears, but they weren’t the kind that made me feel better. It reminded me about the mortality facing me as I look at my 15-year-old daughter: that powerlessness that perhaps I won’t be around to see her grow into a woman. Thank God for distractions like a nice walk with my husband and an evening of Netflix to put me back into my one-day-at-a-time state. A beautiful quote from the movie is when dreamboat Augustus Waters says, “That’s the...

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